Feeling your words trace
my skin helps me sleep at night.
Your fingertips flipping through the
pages of my soul help me
love you day after day,
but you staying after seeing me
in the light after a rough night
makes me love me.
With the noose tied and the laughter subsided
tears ran down my face as I had the worst case of
fear. For the first time I couldn’t see your face
and I knew that the time I would finally end it
was near. Not because of you or your abuse
but because I no longer knew how to be anyone…
Especially myself. You had won your game.
I was ruined and my heart was empty.
I could not find any paths that could
bring me back to myself. I screamed,
“please! believe in yourself!” but
I just couldn’t do it. My pride had slipped
away because I know that any other day
I would have said, “No! You will not win!”
I just… Don’t… Care… So, I say “au revoir”
and I grant myself so much more than my pride
could give me… Peace.